Quick Endometriosis & Life Update 💛🎗🌻

Hi friends!  It's been an eventful few weeks around here and I haven't had a chance to pop in.  So today, I wanted to stop by with a quick endometriosis and life update.

I was originally scheduled to have my endometriosis excision surgery later this week (on Thursday 9/11) but the hospital and OR pushed back my surgery date.  That was a whole thing on it's own... but we finally got that straightened out and I'm on track.

I’m now having surgery two weeks from today, on Monday 9/22 and it’s pretty much a solid confirmation- barring any emergencies coming up.  The procedure should take about 2 to 2.5 hours to find & remove all of the endo lesions, remove my giant baseball sized ovarian cyst and detach my bowels from my uterus.  (Yeah… I had honestly forgotten about that last part from my previous appointment… fun times.)

Eliot and I finally went down to Boston this past Friday for my pre-op appointment and thankfully it went really well.  I felt tons of relief after talking with my surgeon and his nurse.  They answered all of our questions and I left feeling a bit overwhelmed, but sure in my decision to move forward with surgery.

I’m currently feeling optimistic about things, but it’s been a very rough few weeks for me, physically, mentally and emotionally.  Sometimes it feels like the universe hates me and that I can’t seem to catch a break.  I’ve caught myself saying that I’m waving the white flag in defeat a few times.  I’m tired.  I’m cranky.  I hurt and I’m uncomfortable ALL the time.  I’m not sleeping very well at this point since I can’t get comfortable.  I have zero patience for anything right now.  The spoons aren’t all taken up… they have completely left the building.  I’ve tried to play it off that everything is fine so I don’t worry anyone… but I’m so tired of wearing a mask.  It’s hard not to feel beaten down and discouraged right now.  Even my little pep talks to myself feel like they’re just not setting in like they usually do.  (But stubborn me keeps giving myself them… regardless.)  I’m putting so much hope into this procedure… I don’t know what I’m going to do if it doesn’t make me feel better.

For now, I guess that I just try to stay as optimistic as possible and wait patiently for my new surgery date.  Thankfully, we’ve got plenty of Etsy orders for both shops, house projects and things on my to do list to keep me busy.  Only two more weeks… 💛🎗🌻