Monday, September 29, 2025

Endometriosis Surgery and Recovery 💛🎗🌻

Hello friends!  It’s been one week since my endometriosis excision surgery and I thought it was time that I give you a post-surgery update. 🌻 But before that, I’d like to thank everyone who texted, messaged, and checked in on me this past week.  Your well wishes have meant the world to me. 💕 Now for all the updates:

Bruno the baseball sized cyst has officially vacated the premises.  But apparently Bruno had some other cyst friends… and from my pathology report, it looks like I had a small gathering of the Madrigal family hiding away in Casita Melissa. 🙄

I am both happy and relieved to report that the word “endometriosis” was written on my pathology report numerous times.  I can’t even begin to tell you how wonderfully validating that is after everything I’ve fought through to get to this point. 🎗

It does appear that many of my body parts were fused together from endo lesions.  Eliot couldn’t remember all of the things my doctor said, but he was able to remove it and separate everything.  He also found endo on my diaphragm (as we all suspected), which explains why I’ve been having trouble breathing & catching my breath. 😕

As for the elephant in the room… there was both good news and bad news.  My doctor was able to save my right ovary, but instead I lost my Fallopian tube. 🙁 For months, I have been trying to prepare myself for the fact that I might lose my right ovary.  (That’s why I’ve barely left the couch for six months… I was trying to avoid ovarian torsion at all costs.)  I’m immensely relieved that it wasn’t damaged, but I’m also devastated that I had to lose anything to this disease.  And I’m not going to sugarcoat it, I am still fragile and very much "in my feelings” both mentally and emotionally over losing my tube😕 

Thankfully, the procedure went smoothly and my body tolerated the whole thing well. The worst part was probably the recovery room.  I didn’t come out of the anesthesia as well as they had hoped.  I was very groggy and weak and I just wanted to sleep. Thankfully, they let Eliot into recovery while I was still very out of it (see photo below).  I was actually in there so long that my first nurse had to go on her lunch break.  My second nurse was finally able to bring me back to life with apple juice, saltine crackers & graham crackers. Eventually, Eliot and her got me out of my bed and upright in a chair.  When the color finally returned to my face and I was fully awake and talking, they helped walk me to the restroom where I was able to pee.  (That was my one criteria for being able to leave the hospital and I've never been so thankful to pee in my entire life!) After that, we received my post-op marching orders and I was sprung free. 🎉

Mom and Jeremy accompanied us back to the hotel where they stayed until they knew I was alright.  Eliot and I stayed at the hotel Monday and returned to Maine on Tuesday. He stayed home with me Wednesday, and worked 1/2 days Thursday & Friday.  

I’ve mostly hung out on the couch watching tv when I haven’t been taking naps.  My pregnancy pillow is the all-star there.  That thing was well worth the $25… it’s kept me cocooned and comfortable in bed since I’m not a big fan of sleeping on my back. (Unfortunately, it also makes me snore… sorry babe!) 🤣 Over the weekend, I was finally able to sleep comfortably on my side without major pain… and I’m feeling more rested today than I have in months.

Physically, I’m still sore and I feel a bit battered and bruised.  My hands are both still bruised in varying shades of yellow, green and purple that I’ve never seen before and it still hurts when I wash them. 🙁 My throat has been tender from the tube and it stings randomly throughout the day… but that’s only validating my excuse to shamelessly eat fudge pops whenever I want to. 😉  My bodily functions appear to have returned to normal.  My stomach has actually growled a few times now!  I honestly don’t remember the last time I actually felt hungry before my surgery.

My stomach still hurts- especially when I move around- but I haven’t been completely dependent on medications so I’m grateful for that.  Thankfully, my four incisions look good.  (Eliot keeps checking them for me since I’ve been too chicken myself to take a proper look at them.) 😳

I’m able to get up from the couch, toilet and bed on my own now… which feels like a giant victory! 🎉 Sometimes it still hurts a bit when everything first shifts… I can quite literally feel my insides moving around and gravity is not my friend.  But each time I get up, the shift seems less noticeable.

I’ve been slowly answering Etsy messages and getting back into my normal “business” routine, while still very much looking forward to taking it easy.  I just started watching Downtown Abbey last week and I’ve got a pile of coloring books with my name on them. I’d like to start reading a new book this week.  And my punch needle kit arrived the day we returned to Maine… so I’m looking forward to learning how to do that this week! 😊

But the very best news I can share with you, is that within hours of having surgery, I could already feel the difference.  At first, I thought it was the hardcore pain meds… but a week later, I can confidently tell you that it worked.  I still don’t even know what exactly my doctor did, but I know that my lower back and shoulder pain is mostly gone. I’ve been experiencing both for so long that I can’t even remember when I wasn’t.  It’s the weirdest thing… Eliot and I went out to run a few errands yesterday, and I (very slowly) walked around three big box stores.  Usually, that would put my lower back into complete agony.  But when we got home, all I could feel was exhaustion since that was my first outing since my surgery.  There wasn’t any lower back pain.  It appears that separating my uterus from my bowels may have cured that… and getting the endo off of my diaphragm took away the shoulder pain.  And I know this current lack of pain could change at any minute; but for right now, it truly feels like a miracle. 

I know that we’re only one week post-op but I’m optimistic that this will greatly improve my daily life. 🌻  Overall, I’m in pretty good spirits and I’m very thankful to have my excision surgery behind me.  I am forever grateful to Dr. G and my team of nurses and doctors at Beth Israel. 💖 And now I’m looking ahead to my post-op appointment on 10/10 where I'll get more details about my surgery and what lies ahead for me… 💛🎗🌻

Monday, September 22, 2025

Endometriosis Excision Surgery Day… 💛🎗🌻

 Today is finally the day… my endometriosis excision surgery is here!!! 💛🎗🌻


Goodbye “Bruno" the baseball (or larger) sized ovarian cyst.
Goodbye super tender cyst bump in my belly.
Goodbye wondering if my pain was all just in my head.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my intense stomach cramps & pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my unrelenting lower back pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my horrible periods.
Goodbye (hopefully) to times it feels like I’m being stabbed.
Goodbye (hopefully) to nausea… for any and every reason.
Goodbye (hopefully) to constant digestive issues.
Goodbye (hopefully) to severe exhaustion.
Goodbye (hopefully) to massive bloating and feeling like a whale.
Goodbye (hopefully) to frequent and painful urination.
Goodbye (hopefully) to awful sciatic nerve pain & hip pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my recent lack of appetite.
Goodbye (hopefully) to shame & always questioning myself.
Goodbye (hopefully) to doctors who don’t listen.
Goodbye (hopefully) to all of other issues endometriosis causes.
Goodbye (hopefully) to feeling hopeless and helpless.

Hello to my wonderful team of doctors and nurses at BIDMC.
Hello to what’s hopefully an easy & routine surgical procedure.
Hello to weeks of healing, rest and relaxation.
Hello to (hopefully) finally feeling like I can do things again.
Hello to finally wearing jeans again… maybe…. possibly? 
Hello to (hopefully) finally feeling like myself again.
Hello to what’s hopefully a beautiful new chapter for me… 💛🎗🌻

Sunday, September 21, 2025

Endo Eviction Notice 💛🎗🌻

The Final Endodometriosis Eviction Notice has been served. 💛🎗🌻

Aka peace out to "Bruno" the baseball sized cyst!  Yes, I named my cyst… because we don’t talk about Bruno. 🤣 (And when we do, he always seems to make himself known… much to my dismay.) 🙄

I just had to pop in quickly to tell you that my surgery time was confirmed by the hospital and all systems are a go for tomorrow!  We’re finally doing this!!! 🎉


Also as a quick side note- I’ve been dreaming about taking this photo for months… so I had to make it happen before it was too late.  (I’ve been in a lot of pain, but clearly snarky Melissa is still alive and well!)  Bruno, I might not be able to talk about you without repercussions… but you should know your reign of chaos is almost up!!! 💛🎗🌻

Monday, September 15, 2025

You Are Stronger Than Your Pain 💛🎗🌻

It’s one week out from my endometriosis excision surgery. 💛🎗🌻  

I’m at the point now where anxiety is slowly creeping in… but I’ve been keeping busy with my never ending to do lists.  It’s been a little stressful, but it’s also kept me busy so I haven’t overthought things.

I feel like a squirrel gathering stuff and tucking it all away to prepare for the coming season.  I’ve got my bag of post-op medications and my special pre-op shower wash set aside.  My giant pile of post-op stuff to help keep me comfortable is in my Amazon cart- ready to be purchased this evening.  I’ve got a list of activities, crafts, books, and movies to keep me busy.  I’ve made a list of things that Eliot and I need to get done before we leave for MA on Sunday.  And I’ve already prepared Etsy away messages, all of my social media posts for both the businesses, and we’re well on our way to getting a few more orders out before I go in recovery mode.  I’ve got lists everywhere.  Basically I’m Santa making lists and checking them twice (and then a few more times).  It’s all been very overwhelming… so today I wanted to share a positive note.

Over the past six months, I’ve probably had a million thoughts go through my head on this journey from an official diagnosis to surgery.  But one phrase has stood out more than others.  You’ve all probably come to the conclusion by now that mouse ears are part of my love language.  So a few weeks ago, I asked Eliot to make this design that I could wear to the Sunflower Festival. 🌻

These special mouse ears were originally born from a place of hurt and pain, but now they are my symbol of hope. 💕 They are a love letter to myself and to all of my Endo Warrior sisters. 🎗 You ARE stronger than your pain… even when it doesn’t feel like it.

There have been days when I thought the pain would consume me.  Days when I was depressed and I didn’t even want to get out of bed to keep trying anymore.  Days when I wanted to give up fighting to be heard, believed and taken seriously.  Days when everything felt like too much.  But all the while, a little voice inside of me kept telling me to push forward… even when it felt like I was drowning.  Because deep down I knew that I was stronger than this and I wasn’t going to let it take over my entire life.  

Is endometriosis a part of me now… yes.  Are there days when it’s in the driver’s seat… yes.  Will there be more of those days in the future… probably.  But I’m not going to let it have complete control over me anymore… because even on the bad days I know that I AM stronger than my pain.  And here’s hoping it’s that positive energy that powers me through this next week of waiting and through my surgery and recovery. 💛🎗🌻 

Monday, September 8, 2025

Quick Endometriosis & Life Update 💛🎗🌻

Hi friends!  It's been an eventful few weeks around here and I haven't had a chance to pop in.  So today, I wanted to stop by with a quick endometriosis and life update.

I was originally scheduled to have my endometriosis excision surgery later this week (on Thursday 9/11) but the hospital and OR pushed back my surgery date.  That was a whole thing on it's own... but we finally got that straightened out and I'm on track.

I’m now having surgery two weeks from today, on Monday 9/22 and it’s pretty much a solid confirmation- barring any emergencies coming up.  The procedure should take about 2 to 2.5 hours to find & remove all of the endo lesions, remove my giant baseball sized ovarian cyst and detach my bowels from my uterus.  (Yeah… I had honestly forgotten about that last part from my previous appointment… fun times.)

Eliot and I finally went down to Boston this past Friday for my pre-op appointment and thankfully it went really well.  I felt tons of relief after talking with my surgeon and his nurse.  They answered all of our questions and I left feeling a bit overwhelmed, but sure in my decision to move forward with surgery.

I’m currently feeling optimistic about things, but it’s been a very rough few weeks for me, physically, mentally and emotionally.  Sometimes it feels like the universe hates me and that I can’t seem to catch a break.  I’ve caught myself saying that I’m waving the white flag in defeat a few times.  I’m tired.  I’m cranky.  I hurt and I’m uncomfortable ALL the time.  I’m not sleeping very well at this point since I can’t get comfortable.  I have zero patience for anything right now.  The spoons aren’t all taken up… they have completely left the building.  I’ve tried to play it off that everything is fine so I don’t worry anyone… but I’m so tired of wearing a mask.  It’s hard not to feel beaten down and discouraged right now.  Even my little pep talks to myself feel like they’re just not setting in like they usually do.  (But stubborn me keeps giving myself them… regardless.)  I’m putting so much hope into this procedure… I don’t know what I’m going to do if it doesn’t make me feel better.

For now, I guess that I just try to stay as optimistic as possible and wait patiently for my new surgery date.  Thankfully, we’ve got plenty of Etsy orders for both shops, house projects and things on my to do list to keep me busy.  Only two more weeks… 💛🎗🌻