Monday, September 29, 2025

Endometriosis Surgery and Recovery 💛🎗🌻

Hello friends!  It’s been one week since my endometriosis excision surgery and I thought it was time that I give you a post-surgery update. 🌻 But before that, I’d like to thank everyone who texted, messaged, and checked in on me this past week.  Your well wishes have meant the world to me. 💕 Now for all the updates:

Bruno the baseball sized cyst has officially vacated the premises.  But apparently Bruno had some other cyst friends… and from my pathology report, it looks like I had a small gathering of the Madrigal family hiding away in Casita Melissa. 🙄

I am both happy and relieved to report that the word “endometriosis” was written on my pathology report numerous times.  I can’t even begin to tell you how wonderfully validating that is after everything I’ve fought through to get to this point. 🎗

It does appear that many of my body parts were fused together from endo lesions.  Eliot couldn’t remember all of the things my doctor said, but he was able to remove it and separate everything.  He also found endo on my diaphragm (as we all suspected), which explains why I’ve been having trouble breathing & catching my breath. 😕

As for the elephant in the room… there was both good news and bad news.  My doctor was able to save my right ovary, but instead I lost my Fallopian tube. 🙁 For months, I have been trying to prepare myself for the fact that I might lose my right ovary.  (That’s why I’ve barely left the couch for six months… I was trying to avoid ovarian torsion at all costs.)  I’m immensely relieved that it wasn’t damaged, but I’m also devastated that I had to lose anything to this disease.  And I’m not going to sugarcoat it, I am still fragile and very much "in my feelings” both mentally and emotionally over losing my tube😕 

Thankfully, the procedure went smoothly and my body tolerated the whole thing well. The worst part was probably the recovery room.  I didn’t come out of the anesthesia as well as they had hoped.  I was very groggy and weak and I just wanted to sleep. Thankfully, they let Eliot into recovery while I was still very out of it (see photo below).  I was actually in there so long that my first nurse had to go on her lunch break.  My second nurse was finally able to bring me back to life with apple juice, saltine crackers & graham crackers. Eventually, Eliot and her got me out of my bed and upright in a chair.  When the color finally returned to my face and I was fully awake and talking, they helped walk me to the restroom where I was able to pee.  (That was my one criteria for being able to leave the hospital and I've never been so thankful to pee in my entire life!) After that, we received my post-op marching orders and I was sprung free. 🎉

Mom and Jeremy accompanied us back to the hotel where they stayed until they knew I was alright.  Eliot and I stayed at the hotel Monday and returned to Maine on Tuesday. He stayed home with me Wednesday, and worked 1/2 days Thursday & Friday.  

I’ve mostly hung out on the couch watching tv when I haven’t been taking naps.  My pregnancy pillow is the all-star there.  That thing was well worth the $25… it’s kept me cocooned and comfortable in bed since I’m not a big fan of sleeping on my back. (Unfortunately, it also makes me snore… sorry babe!) 🤣 Over the weekend, I was finally able to sleep comfortably on my side without major pain… and I’m feeling more rested today than I have in months.

Physically, I’m still sore and I feel a bit battered and bruised.  My hands are both still bruised in varying shades of yellow, green and purple that I’ve never seen before and it still hurts when I wash them. 🙁 My throat has been tender from the tube and it stings randomly throughout the day… but that’s only validating my excuse to shamelessly eat fudge pops whenever I want to. 😉  My bodily functions appear to have returned to normal.  My stomach has actually growled a few times now!  I honestly don’t remember the last time I actually felt hungry before my surgery.

My stomach still hurts- especially when I move around- but I haven’t been completely dependent on medications so I’m grateful for that.  Thankfully, my four incisions look good.  (Eliot keeps checking them for me since I’ve been too chicken myself to take a proper look at them.) 😳

I’m able to get up from the couch, toilet and bed on my own now… which feels like a giant victory! 🎉 Sometimes it still hurts a bit when everything first shifts… I can quite literally feel my insides moving around and gravity is not my friend.  But each time I get up, the shift seems less noticeable.

I’ve been slowly answering Etsy messages and getting back into my normal “business” routine, while still very much looking forward to taking it easy.  I just started watching Downtown Abbey last week and I’ve got a pile of coloring books with my name on them. I’d like to start reading a new book this week.  And my punch needle kit arrived the day we returned to Maine… so I’m looking forward to learning how to do that this week! 😊

But the very best news I can share with you, is that within hours of having surgery, I could already feel the difference.  At first, I thought it was the hardcore pain meds… but a week later, I can confidently tell you that it worked.  I still don’t even know what exactly my doctor did, but I know that my lower back and shoulder pain is mostly gone. I’ve been experiencing both for so long that I can’t even remember when I wasn’t.  It’s the weirdest thing… Eliot and I went out to run a few errands yesterday, and I (very slowly) walked around three big box stores.  Usually, that would put my lower back into complete agony.  But when we got home, all I could feel was exhaustion since that was my first outing since my surgery.  There wasn’t any lower back pain.  It appears that separating my uterus from my bowels may have cured that… and getting the endo off of my diaphragm took away the shoulder pain.  And I know this current lack of pain could change at any minute; but for right now, it truly feels like a miracle. 

I know that we’re only one week post-op but I’m optimistic that this will greatly improve my daily life. 🌻  Overall, I’m in pretty good spirits and I’m very thankful to have my excision surgery behind me.  I am forever grateful to Dr. G and my team of nurses and doctors at Beth Israel. 💖 And now I’m looking ahead to my post-op appointment on 10/10 where I'll get more details about my surgery and what lies ahead for me… 💛🎗🌻

Monday, September 22, 2025

Endometriosis Excision Surgery Day… 💛🎗🌻

 Today is finally the day… my endometriosis excision surgery is here!!! 💛🎗🌻


Goodbye “Bruno" the baseball (or larger) sized ovarian cyst.
Goodbye super tender cyst bump in my belly.
Goodbye wondering if my pain was all just in my head.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my intense stomach cramps & pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my unrelenting lower back pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my horrible periods.
Goodbye (hopefully) to times it feels like I’m being stabbed.
Goodbye (hopefully) to nausea… for any and every reason.
Goodbye (hopefully) to constant digestive issues.
Goodbye (hopefully) to severe exhaustion.
Goodbye (hopefully) to massive bloating and feeling like a whale.
Goodbye (hopefully) to frequent and painful urination.
Goodbye (hopefully) to awful sciatic nerve pain & hip pain.
Goodbye (hopefully) to my recent lack of appetite.
Goodbye (hopefully) to shame & always questioning myself.
Goodbye (hopefully) to doctors who don’t listen.
Goodbye (hopefully) to all of other issues endometriosis causes.
Goodbye (hopefully) to feeling hopeless and helpless.

Hello to my wonderful team of doctors and nurses at BIDMC.
Hello to what’s hopefully an easy & routine surgical procedure.
Hello to weeks of healing, rest and relaxation.
Hello to (hopefully) finally feeling like I can do things again.
Hello to finally wearing jeans again… maybe…. possibly? 
Hello to (hopefully) finally feeling like myself again.
Hello to what’s hopefully a beautiful new chapter for me… 💛🎗🌻

Sunday, September 21, 2025

Endo Eviction Notice 💛🎗🌻

The Final Endodometriosis Eviction Notice has been served. 💛🎗🌻

Aka peace out to "Bruno" the baseball sized cyst!  Yes, I named my cyst… because we don’t talk about Bruno. 🤣 (And when we do, he always seems to make himself known… much to my dismay.) 🙄

I just had to pop in quickly to tell you that my surgery time was confirmed by the hospital and all systems are a go for tomorrow!  We’re finally doing this!!! 🎉


Also as a quick side note- I’ve been dreaming about taking this photo for months… so I had to make it happen before it was too late.  (I’ve been in a lot of pain, but clearly snarky Melissa is still alive and well!)  Bruno, I might not be able to talk about you without repercussions… but you should know your reign of chaos is almost up!!! 💛🎗🌻

Monday, September 15, 2025

You Are Stronger Than Your Pain 💛🎗🌻

It’s one week out from my endometriosis excision surgery. 💛🎗🌻  

I’m at the point now where anxiety is slowly creeping in… but I’ve been keeping busy with my never ending to do lists.  It’s been a little stressful, but it’s also kept me busy so I haven’t overthought things.

I feel like a squirrel gathering stuff and tucking it all away to prepare for the coming season.  I’ve got my bag of post-op medications and my special pre-op shower wash set aside.  My giant pile of post-op stuff to help keep me comfortable is in my Amazon cart- ready to be purchased this evening.  I’ve got a list of activities, crafts, books, and movies to keep me busy.  I’ve made a list of things that Eliot and I need to get done before we leave for MA on Sunday.  And I’ve already prepared Etsy away messages, all of my social media posts for both the businesses, and we’re well on our way to getting a few more orders out before I go in recovery mode.  I’ve got lists everywhere.  Basically I’m Santa making lists and checking them twice (and then a few more times).  It’s all been very overwhelming… so today I wanted to share a positive note.

Over the past six months, I’ve probably had a million thoughts go through my head on this journey from an official diagnosis to surgery.  But one phrase has stood out more than others.  You’ve all probably come to the conclusion by now that mouse ears are part of my love language.  So a few weeks ago, I asked Eliot to make this design that I could wear to the Sunflower Festival. 🌻

These special mouse ears were originally born from a place of hurt and pain, but now they are my symbol of hope. 💕 They are a love letter to myself and to all of my Endo Warrior sisters. 🎗 You ARE stronger than your pain… even when it doesn’t feel like it.

There have been days when I thought the pain would consume me.  Days when I was depressed and I didn’t even want to get out of bed to keep trying anymore.  Days when I wanted to give up fighting to be heard, believed and taken seriously.  Days when everything felt like too much.  But all the while, a little voice inside of me kept telling me to push forward… even when it felt like I was drowning.  Because deep down I knew that I was stronger than this and I wasn’t going to let it take over my entire life.  

Is endometriosis a part of me now… yes.  Are there days when it’s in the driver’s seat… yes.  Will there be more of those days in the future… probably.  But I’m not going to let it have complete control over me anymore… because even on the bad days I know that I AM stronger than my pain.  And here’s hoping it’s that positive energy that powers me through this next week of waiting and through my surgery and recovery. 💛🎗🌻 

Monday, September 8, 2025

Quick Endometriosis & Life Update 💛🎗🌻

Hi friends!  It's been an eventful few weeks around here and I haven't had a chance to pop in.  So today, I wanted to stop by with a quick endometriosis and life update.

I was originally scheduled to have my endometriosis excision surgery later this week (on Thursday 9/11) but the hospital and OR pushed back my surgery date.  That was a whole thing on it's own... but we finally got that straightened out and I'm on track.

I’m now having surgery two weeks from today, on Monday 9/22 and it’s pretty much a solid confirmation- barring any emergencies coming up.  The procedure should take about 2 to 2.5 hours to find & remove all of the endo lesions, remove my giant baseball sized ovarian cyst and detach my bowels from my uterus.  (Yeah… I had honestly forgotten about that last part from my previous appointment… fun times.)

Eliot and I finally went down to Boston this past Friday for my pre-op appointment and thankfully it went really well.  I felt tons of relief after talking with my surgeon and his nurse.  They answered all of our questions and I left feeling a bit overwhelmed, but sure in my decision to move forward with surgery.

I’m currently feeling optimistic about things, but it’s been a very rough few weeks for me, physically, mentally and emotionally.  Sometimes it feels like the universe hates me and that I can’t seem to catch a break.  I’ve caught myself saying that I’m waving the white flag in defeat a few times.  I’m tired.  I’m cranky.  I hurt and I’m uncomfortable ALL the time.  I’m not sleeping very well at this point since I can’t get comfortable.  I have zero patience for anything right now.  The spoons aren’t all taken up… they have completely left the building.  I’ve tried to play it off that everything is fine so I don’t worry anyone… but I’m so tired of wearing a mask.  It’s hard not to feel beaten down and discouraged right now.  Even my little pep talks to myself feel like they’re just not setting in like they usually do.  (But stubborn me keeps giving myself them… regardless.)  I’m putting so much hope into this procedure… I don’t know what I’m going to do if it doesn’t make me feel better.

For now, I guess that I just try to stay as optimistic as possible and wait patiently for my new surgery date.  Thankfully, we’ve got plenty of Etsy orders for both shops, house projects and things on my to do list to keep me busy.  Only two more weeks… 💛🎗🌻

Thursday, July 17, 2025

Disneyland's 70th Birthday ✨🏰🎂

Happy 70th Birthday to the Happiest Place on Earth!!! ✨🏰🎂

Today I'm back with a magical post for this special occasion!  I can't believe this is my first Disneyland 70th Anniversary Celebration post.  Back when the Disneyland 60th was coming up, I was writing blog posts like a crazy lady.  This time around, it's been hard to muster up the magic when I haven't been feeling well.  But the past few days... the magic has taken hold of me whether I was ready for it or not.  Today, I'm super excited about Disneyland's 70th Anniversary Celebration... 

And I'm more excited about it now that I know Eliot and I will be able to go celebrate in person!  That's right... Eliot and I will be going to Disneyland next year (barring any issues or health problems with me).  He's going to be racing in the Disneyland Half Marathon while I happily stay in race retirement and cheer him on.  I can't wait!!! 

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In the meantime, I'm trying my best to celebrate Disneyland's milestone birthday today at home in an endometriosis friendly way.  During my lunch break, I hopped on Disney+ to watch a few Disney Parks POV videos.  Eliot and I usually start our Disney trips with Pirates of the Caribbean and Haunted Mansion... so it seemed fitting to watch both of those!  I've never watched any of these POV videos on Disney+ before, and the quality was amazing!  I'm also planning to watch a few more of them later on tonight once Eliot is home.  (I saved Indiana Jones and Tiana's Bayou Adventure for him.)  And I'd like to end the evening watching the Nighttime Spectaculars! 

I have been listening to the Disneyland 70th soundtrack while working on orders.  The magical music is making me extra excited about going on our trip in January!

I've also been following a few of my favorite "influencers" online while they are at the celebration in person.  I can't wait to be there myself!

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There are so many things that I'm looking forward to.  I'm so excited that the Paint the Night nighttime parade is back!  It's my favorite!  And I can't wait to experience the Wondrous Journey fireworks show.  There's a new Walt Disney animatronic and exhibit at Disneyland.  Over at California Adventure, World of Color Happiness is also new.  The Pixar Pals Parade is also back!  And I can't even deny it... I am SO excited about the Celebrate Happy Calvacade... because Duffy and ShellieMay are in it!!! 

And the decorations, the merchandise, the food... I can't wait to see everything.

Hopefully I'll be able to write more about it between now and when Eliot and I will be heading out to California... but if not, it will most likely be because of health stuff and projects.  I've got a few things in mind that I would love to accomplish before our trip!  (Hopefully more on that in the coming months!)

For now, Happy 70th Birthday Disneyland.  May you always be filled with magic, joy and happiness.  I can't wait to Celebrate Happy with you!!!  °o°

Tuesday, July 15, 2025

10 Things Your Friend With Endometriosis Wants You to Know 💛🎗🌻

Hi friends.  I know you're probably getting sick of these, but I'm back today with another endometriosis post.  When I decided to "go public" with my diagnosis, I started to write and a few very distinct blog posts started forming.  I needed to write posts about my diagnosis, my symptoms, my cyst and my flare-ups.  But after I went public with it... something else started to take shape.  And that's come together in this post.

I would like to preface the rest of this post by saying that I can't speak for everyone who has been diagnosed with endometriosis.  But I needed to get this out.  I've seen too much pain and hurting from girls in my endometriosis support group... and I can feel them crying out for someone to listen and try to understand where we're coming from.

I have also noticed myself having a lot of big feelings when I've had interactions with people over the past few weeks.  This blog post started out as a few quick tips... maybe five.  But through each interaction, it kind of morphed into it's own thing.  And since writing is where I seem to shine, I thought I would write these down as a reference.  I'm not even sure if anyone who needs to read them will.  But I would love for everyone I know (who loves me and wants the best for me) to read them... because it feels like I'm baring my soul a bit here.  Also, unlike my other Top Ten posts, I didn't number these because I didn't want to rate them.  They're all important.  So I guess let's do this... 

10 Things Your Friend With Endometriosis Wants You to Know

Validate My Pain, My Feelings and My Experience

First and foremost, please simply believe me.  After years of medical gaslighting, please believe what I'm telling you.  I'm not doing this for attention.  Please believe that my pain is real and that my experience with this disease is real.  It's not "just cramps" during my period.  The pain I have experienced is at times completely debilitating, at the very least it's constant aching.  In fact, I wrote a whole separate post just about my symptoms.  So if you haven't read that yet, I encourage you to pop over there before continuing here.

Do Your Research

Please do your own research and educate yourself about endometriosis.  To be frank, I'm already exhausted all of the time and I just don't have the spoons.  Plus, all it takes is a quick Google search and you'll realize how awful and debilitating endo can be.

Don't Try to Fix or Diagnose Me

I don't want you to try and fix me.  I don't want you to do tons of research to try to help the situation.  I just want you to be informed about what I'm dealing with, but I don't expect anyone to come up with any answers.  Plus, only I know the true nature of my disease and how it's affecting me and my life.  And respectfully, you aren't my doctor so I haven't told you everything.  There are quite literally only a handful of other people who know the full story... and that's my three doctors, Eliot and my Mom.

Please Don't Tell Me to Reach Out To You Unless You Really Mean It

Endometriosis sucks.  So if you can't be a reliable sounding board, it's better to just tell me right upfront.  I'm having a very hard time trusting people with this... because I can already feel people trying to keep their distance from me.  I know that I'm probably not much fun right now.  I hurt most of the time and I'm a total downer sometimes.  Please don't allow me to confide in you if you aren't prepared for it.  Because you pulling away after I've shared this with you makes me feel that much more upset and lonely.

Please Check In... 

Even if you aren't equipped to be a sounding board on the bad days, please take a minute to check in on me periodically.  I wish that I'd get more random texts from people saying hi or simply that they're thinking of me.  This disease is very lonely and it feels like no one wants anything to do with me anymore.

But Don't Necessarily Expect a Response

If you do reach out, please don't think I've ghosted you... even if I have.  I can promise you that it's not intentional.  And I'm not mad at you.  I'm just terrible at getting back to people right now.  I constantly feel like I'm a terrible friend, cousin, etc. because I take forever to message people back.  The reality is that I'm just exhausted all the time so I really have to prioritize what needs to get done before I do anything else.

Don't Take Me Cancelling Plans Personally

As much as I could want to do whatever with you, I might not feel good that day and I might cancel last minute.  Recently, I've been cancelling things left and right.  Eliot and I roll with the punches and don't make any plans concrete.  It's nothing personal... the reality is that I'm sick and I have a lot of days when I'd rather lay in bed or on my couch.

Also Don't Take Me Not Making Any Plans Personally

This is my trick in order to not worry about cancelling on people-  I've just tried to not make plans to begin with.  The downside of this, is that people probably think that I'm avoiding them.  When the reality is that I don't want to disappoint you by canceling last minute.  It's easier just to avoid plans in general.  But that's not really how a former social butterfly thrives... and I'm having a very hard time adjusting to this loneliness.

Support My Self-Care 

Please encourage me to nap, relax, read a book, color, binge watch television/movies, etc.  Because if you know me, then you know that I don't like to slow down.  You also know that I judge way to much of my self-worth on how productive I've been.  And considering that I haven't been able to do much at all these past few months... I am feeling pretty badly about myself right now.  Please remind me that it's ok to rest and that it's ok to stay in bed (or on the couch) if I need to.  My self-care is critical.

There Isn't a Cure For Endometriosis 

Finally... this is the most important one.  If you only take one of these home in your mind, please for the love of all that is holy let it be this one.  Endometriosis is a life-long disease that there isn't a cure for.  Please do not make me feel like this is something that I have to "battle" or "conquer" in order to get better.  There is no winning with endometriosis.  There is no magical hump that you get over and suddenly you're cured.  There are no pills.  There is no magic diet.  My excision surgery will not "fix" me.  If you tell me to "just get pregnant" I will probably punch you.  And please don't ask me if I'm feeling better yet... because there is no "yet" with endometriosis.  This is now a part of me, and I'm just trying my best to learn to navigate it and all that it entails. 💛🎗🌻