August 1st... wow. Here we are welcoming the 8th month of the year and I think that I'm mentally still somewhere back in the spring.
It's officially been two and half months since I've checked in. At some point, it probably won't look like that if I'm able to go back and write all of the posts I had planned. But here in the present, I haven't written a blog post since May 15th. And even then, my May posts feel like cop outs... it's been a while since I actually posted.
Eliot and I have been busy as usual... which I'm sure is no big surprise. What's new is that we're navigating a lot of changes in our personal lives. This past month has been a bit of a rollercoaster... and I can say that July wasn't my favorite.
I won't unpack it all right now, but let's just say that we're wading through uncharted waters. Eliot and I have never really had health issues before, and this past month or so has brought to light a few things that we're now learning more about. Both of us are adjusting to new medicines, new routines and new normals.
I'm not going to sugar coat it. It's been pretty shitty... figuratively and literally.
Medications can bring on a whole new host of delightful side affects, and our bodies probably both feel like they're being metaphorically tortured. And the fun part is that I'm not sure the worst has yet to come for me... so that's something to look forward to.
Anyways, I haven't really been in the state of mind, or body, to sit down and write. I've spent a lot of time in bed napping... time that I had originally thought I'd be writing while trying to enjoy the nice, cool air conditioning in our living room. The harsh reality is that I've been so busy (or not feeling well) that I haven't even missed writing. I haven't even had the website open. And up until this past week or so, I hadn't even checked on my blog post planning notes. They were weeks old since I had updated anything on them... which is unheard of for me since I'm a planner and list maker.
While I haven't thought much about it the past two and a half months, I have missed my blog. "Write Blog Posts" is on my daily to do list, but lately it's been nothing more than an item that gets deleted since I know it will be a small miracle if I can put a dent in the rest of my list of things that really need to get done. I've slowly been making progress on that stuff, and I'm hoping that more time will miraculously find it's way to me... but there's always more stuff that needs to be added to it. Still, I miss writing.
I'd like to say that I'm going to go back and write the 80 posts that I've missed since the beginning of the year... but the truth is that I just don't know anymore.
I knew I was behind, so I don't have much planned for August. I'm hopeful that I'll be able to go back and write some of the things I'd planned... even if it's merchandise and holiday posts to begin with. I never got anything done for my 10 year Blogiversary or Christmas in July. Those both seem like huge tasks now, but I guess we'll see in time.
Right now, the most important thing is Eliot and me taking care of ourselves and each other. And our next priorities are both businesses and trying to enjoy a bit of our summer. Thankfully, we have been able to spend some time with friends and family when we've been feeling ok. We have also caught a few Portland Sea Dogs games at the ballpark and some movies. This summer hasn't been as spectacular as I had envisioned, but I'm thankful for all of the things we have been able to do.
I hope you have all been well and that you're enjoying your summer friends. I will check back in as soon as I am able to. °o°
