Sunday, May 14, 2023
Mother's Day 2023
Thursday, April 20, 2023
Mom's Birthday
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you...
Today is my Mom's Birthday! I thought I'd pop in here for a minute to celebrate. We don't have any big plans for today. Eliot and Jeremy are both working, and since Mom and Dad just came off of tax season two days ago, they are pretty much in rest and recovery mode. I'm sure they will do something to celebrate, but it probably won't be anything too major since they're both still exhausted.
I called Mom a little bit ago, and we talked for about an hour. She said she was pretty much content staying in her pajamas and hanging out at the house... but they might go into town for dinner later on and to get out of the house for a little bit.
Plus, Jeremy Eliot and I are supposed to see them in a couple of weeks, and again over Mother's Day weekend, so I'm sure we'll get a chance to celebrate Mom then.
Happy Birthday Mom! I hope you have a great day! °o°
Thursday, April 6, 2023
Nana's First Birthday in Heaven
Today is a bittersweet day... it's Nana's birthday and the first one that we'll ever have to celebrate without her here with us. But I wanted to make today as positive as I could.
I had a huge Throwback Thursday post that I wanted to write about so many of the memories we have of Nana, but I've decided to wait to post it. It's not done, and it's not something that I want to rush. So you'll see it someday... but today isn't that day.
Instead, I'm honestly just trying to spend this day the best way I can... getting through it. Eliot and I will be on our way down to Boston later today. Then, we'll have a few days away from the house and the businesses. We have got a lot of stuff planned to keep me busy and my mind elsewhere- and I'm incredibly grateful for that.
Happy First Birthday in Heaven Nana. We miss you terribly, but I'm happy that you're with Papa again. Have a slice of peanut butter frosted chocolate cake for me. °o°
Saturday, March 4, 2023
Happy 90th Birthday Papa
Well, here we are... on a day that used to bring me such love and light. I haven't been looking forward to it this year. Not one bit. Not at all actually...
Today would have been my Papa's 90th birthday.
Today also marks the exact date that Nana's been gone for two months...
So no, today isn't really something that I've been looking forward to. It's been a dark mark on the calendar that we have slowly been marching towards. But it's here now...
Man, this week has really sucked. I keep trying to find the bright side of things, but my optimism is kind of failing me. I just can't get out of the funk this week. I keep trying to tell myself that at least Nana and Papa are together again. But all that makes me think is that I wish they were together here with us. Then I get sad, angry, and depressed...
Then the cycle begins all over again.
Eliot and I still haven't seen my parents since Christmas. So much has happened and we haven't even gotten that over with. We've seen Eliot's family who lives in California twice in the time since we saw Mom and Dad. Jeremy has been home twice already... so he's already gotten the whole seeing our parents and 'going home to the house without Nana in it anymore' thing over with... twice. I feel like I'm sitting outside of this secret society just waiting for the moment when we'll have our time.
The moment when this is all real and not some horrible bad dream. The moment when my heart is completely shattered into a million little pieces.
Yeah... super looking forward to that. Not.
Grief hits everyone differently, and I know that I'm not immune. For the most part, I have basically tried to repress any feelings that I've had. It's probably not healthy, but I really don't know what else to do. I can't change the fact that Nana isn't here with us anymore. I'm comforted knowing she was almost 90 and that she lived a wonderful life. I also feel proud that we did so much with her after Papa died. She could have given up but instead she went to Walt Disney World again, twice. We took her on not one, but two Disney Cruises. We also drove with her to Virginia and back.
I'm ok with the fact that my 90 year old grandmother lived her life to the fullest and that it was her time to go. But I'm struggling with other things that I probably shouldn't be.
I'm definitely taking the Timo Meier trade harder than I should be. And I know that it's misplaced grief, or whatever the fancy term for it is. Eliot told me the other day that I've cried more about Timo being traded than I did about Nana dying... and that made me cry even more. Because even though the two have absolutely nothing to do with each other, somehow, they're completely intertwined in my pile of grief. Losing Timo from the Sharks isn't the end of the world... but when I was already feeling fragile to begin with, it was devastating. And I can't seem to untangle it.
I'm trying to be kind to myself. I cognitively know that grief is a rollercoaster that you just have to buckle up for. It hits in waves that you won't see coming.
And the only small solace that I can find in this complete pile of hell, is that today used to be a day filled with joy. My Nana and Papa were everything to me. And although they are gone now, I have so many wonderful memories with them that I cherish.
Happy 90th Birthday Papa. I hope you and Nana are celebrating together with lots of playful bickering, laughter and chocolate cake. We miss you both terribly and wish you were here. But I'm glad that you're at least together. I love you. °o°
Thursday, February 23, 2023
Flying Away to San Jose
We're on to the next adventure! This trip totally snuck right up on us. I feel like we've been talking about going back out to San Jose forever... and now that day is here!
This afternoon, Eliot and I will make the trek down to Boston and Logan International Airport via bus from Portland. We're supposed to be having some pretty major winter weather, but we think our bus ride will be during the lull between the two storms hitting southern Maine. Then, we're actually meeting up with Elissa at the airport, since she's been out here for the week visiting her friend in Massachusetts.
The three of us are sitting together in a row on our JetBlue flight. Thankfully, it's a direct flight from Boston to San Francisco so we don't have any layovers. We don't arrive until about 4:00 AM our time, but we'll probably get some sleep on the plane.
I'm actually hoping to get a bit of catching up done here on my blog. Eliot told me that JetBlue sent him an email the other day saying that our flight had free wifi, so I guess we'll see! If I can plug my laptop in, and get on the inter-webs... I might be able to get caught up on some stuff. We've been so busy preparing for our trip this week that I haven't been able to finish my posts from this Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday. And I also have to finish a few that I planned on writing for this weekend!
Anyways... Eliot and I have still got a bit of stuff that has to get done before we need to leave, so I should go attend to that. But I wanted to pop by and check in here first! I'll try to post a few pictures on social media from our travels. We have got lots of San Jose Sharks related fun planned for the weekend! Go Sharks!!! °o°
Wednesday, January 18, 2023
Farewell to My Fairy Godmother
As I mentioned yesterday, I've really needed a break from everything. What I didn't tell you, was one of the reasons the past few weeks have been so awful. I told you that Nana was sick when I wrote about Christmas, but what I didn't tell you was how bad it was. When we left Trenton after Christmas, Jeremy, Eliot and I were all pretty certain that was the last time we'd see Nana. And it was breaking my heart.
Self-preservation is a funny thing; the human brain will close off memories or emotions when we’re unable to process them. I’ve avoided posting anything and have been 100% focused on the tasks in front of me… finishing my 10K, taking a much needed break, and trying to enjoy our two week vacation at Walt Disney World. The "Disney Bubble” was my safe haven, but you can’t run from the real world forever. Now that Eliot and I have been home for a couple of days, I've decided that it’s time to take the box off of the shelf and unpack some raw emotion.
Thursday, October 20, 2022
#tbt Our Wedding Reception in Maine
Today we're doing another special edition of Throwback Thursday, because exactly 10 years ago today... Eliot and I had our Wedding Reception in Maine!!!
As soon we decided that we were definitely having our wedding at Disney, we knew we wanted to have at home receptions to celebrate with everyone who wasn't able to travel down to Florida for the actual wedding. Unfortunately, our California reception never took off the ground, but my parents and I were determined to have one in Maine.
You probably think that we're crazy for trying to plan a destination wedding and then a reception a month later... but that was just par for the course. Over the summer of 2011, we went to scope out a potential location for our Maine location during one of Eliot's and my trips home to visit my parents in Trenton. Thankfully, it was perfect and literally a five minute drive from their house.
A few days before the event, Eliot and I traveled the 5.5 hours from our apartment in Woburn, MA up to Trenton for our reception. We were renting it for Saturday, October 20th, but they allowed us to go decorate the hall the day prior.
We held our reception at a local campground's event center and it was very informal and more for fun. We had a video of our wedding that we showed to our guests before we made our "grand entrance". Eliot and I both dressed up for it. (He wore a lime shirt, a pink tie and a black suit to match our wedding colors instead of renting a suit again.) I wore my wedding gown again so my Grammie could see me in it.
Katie D, Katie N and Kaitlin wore their bridesmaid dresses and BJ and Jeremy dressed up as well. It was as close the real thing as we could make it feel.
We had Katie D and BJ make maid of honor and best man toasts.
BJ didn't give a toast at our wedding, so it was special to have him make one here.
Katie gave another wonderful toast at our Maine reception.
We also had a cake. The girls really bailed me out on that. They all arrived at Mom and Dad's house right about the same time I was having a breakdown. Mom and I cooked the cake ourselves and I don't think I let it cool off long enough before I tried to ice it. It wasn't the prettiest thing, but it worked and tasted good.
My cousin Luke agreed to be our DJ and unofficial "host" of the afternoon, so I gave him my laptop with a bunch of pre-selected songs in a folder that we also had played at our wedding reception in Disney. Eliot and I recreated our first dance to "Promise".
Then, we also had another father/daughter dance.
Finally, Eliot and my Mom also did a mother-in-law and son-in-law dance.
We brought our wedding guest book for people to sign.
I also had some some fake leaves and a Vinylmation to sign.
We had copies of our invitations, wedding programs, wedding photos and a few other things on display for everyone to look at when they first entered the venue.
I put my Build a Bear plush in the windows along with a few other decorations.
Emery was quite taken with the display, especially the photos. He pulled me over there and kept pointing me out in all of the photos. It was adorable!
The best part of the Maine Wedding Reception event was having so many people who weren't able to make it to our Disney Wedding in Florida be there.
I was especially grateful to have my Grammie there.
We also made sure to take a photo with me wearing my wedding gown along with Mom, Grammie and Nana at my request. (This photo is very special to me.)
I'm also really glad that Eliot and I took a photo with us and all of my grandparents... especially since 10 years later, Papa and Grammie are no longer with us.
Eliot's and my Maine Wedding Reception was a simple, yet very special event. I'm so glad that we had one, even when planning for it and our wedding was a bit dicey at times. The only regret I have is that we didn't hire a professional photographer for the event. These photos are so precious to me and it would have been wonderful to have more of them. However, I'm so grateful for what we did have. It was a wonderful day celebrating Eliot's and my wedding that was filled with friends, family and love. °o°
Thursday, October 13, 2022
On Our Way to the Sharks and SJ
Ahh!!! I'm so excited! 30 minutes from now, Eliot and I will be boarding our bus and officially be on our way to the Sharks and San Jose!!!
It's going to be a really quick trip. We're literally traveling all day today. Our bus from Portland to Logan International Airport is from 10:30 AM to 12:30 PM. Then, our flight from Boston to Denver is from 3:05 to 5:45 Denver time. We leave Denver at 9:25 and arrive in San Jose at 10:55 San Jose time. So we're basically traveling from 10:30 AM to about 2:00 AM Eastern time. It's a super long day... but I know it will be worth it!
Eliot and I usually sleep on our flights since we generally fly first thing in the morning or at night. But both of our travel days this time are during the daylight hours. Thus, I've made sure to pack stuff to do on the plane and during our layover. We have battery backups, but I also made sure to bring a few books with me. I'm hoping that will make the time go by faster since getting into a good book takes me somewhere else.
We're only in San Jose Friday and Saturday. The Sharks hockey games are both at night, so we'll be doing something during the day. Right now, I'm not sure what our plans are, but I'm sure we will find something fun to do! I think Elissa has to work during the day, but Eliot's Mom and Dad should be able to do something with us if they don't have meetings for work. Nori's birthday is actually tomorrow, so I'm sure we'll do something special for that... maybe lunch or dinner before the game?
Eliot and I are both really looking forward to the games. I've never been to a Home Opener so I'm excited to see that. In the past, the Sharks have done a big pre-game presentation where they introduce all of the players on the team, so that will be cool to experience in person. We're excited to see Brent Burns play, even if it's for the other team. They are doing giveaways to all of the fans during each of our games, so we'll be coming home with a few souvenirs. Finally, we're both pretty excited to see what's available in the Sharks Pro Shop and the pop-up shops at the Shark Tank!
Unfortunately, a few hours after the second game ends, we'll be making our way to the airport for our trip home. Eliot and I would have loved to stay and visit with his family longer, but he's got limited vacation time. But the good news is that we'll be seeing them for about a week during our WDW Marathon Weekend trip in January!
Our trip back will be another long day of travel, although this one won't be quite as long. Our flight leaves San Francisco at 7:00 AM and we arrive back in Boston at 3:40 PM. Thankfully, this one is a direct flight that's only about 5.5 hours. Once we land in Boston, we'll take another bus back up to Portland... probably the 4:30 bus that'll get us in around 6:45. By the time we get home, it'll be around 7:30 and we'll probably crash.
I'm sure this crazy, flying trip will be 100% worth it though! We get to visit Eliot's family for a few days and we'll get to see the Sharks play in person at the Tank! I'll be back to check in sometime once we're home to let you know how it went! Go Sharks!!! °o°
Sunday, September 18, 2022
Disneyland September 2022 Bucket List Results
My family went to Disneyland... and I'm still pinching myself. Going to Disneyland was something that I never truly thought I'd ever experience with my parents. I remember being so excited to show Jeremy everything back in December of 2017. I figured that was as good as it was gonna get. Mom would never fly out to California... right?
Wrong. Ever since I found out that we all were going... I could barely contain my sheer excitement. I was incredibly excited for this trip... which was probably pretty obvious since I couldn't stop talking about it here on my blog. I also created an insanely long Disneyland Bucket List that I had to separate into categories since it was so long. (In my defense, it also got extra long due to the Halloween season.)
Today, I wanted to see how we did with that bucket list. I didn't get as much done as I wanted to, but the most important part of this trip was that Mom and Dad enjoyed it... which I can say with 100% certainty that they did. Plus, none of us were prepared for the onslaught of a rouge California heat wave so we did pretty good considering the circumstances! So let's dive into these results!
38.) Family Photos in Front of the Castle
We weren't able to do the Pumpkin Pursuit, but Eliot and I did purchase the Halloween buckets you get as prizes. They're the perfect size for the donkeys so we might have to have his Mom go back to get a few more! They need trick or treat buckets!
This list of 82 things was the most insane bucket list that I've ever created. We didn't get a good portion of it done...but I can't really be mad about it. I don't like to eat much when I'm hot, and I barely ate during most of the trip since it was so darn hot out.
I feel like we did get to experience Halloween in the parks. And Eliot and I did a lot of the normal "Disneyland Resort" stuff back in March. Mom, Dad and Jeremy enjoyed everything and loved getting to see Disneyland and all of the differences, and at the end of the day, that's all that really mattered to me.
Thank you Disneyland for a lot of wonderful memories! Now that we have visited you together as a family once, I have a newfound hope that we'll be back someday!!! °o°